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[27 Mar 2005|11:50pm] |
spring break was great.
bryce's family came down to visit for 4 days...and i miss them already. i feel like they really like me now, and i'm so glad. i'd hoped so badly that they wouldn't think i wasn't worth bryce moving here for. his mom told me i was. i almost cried.
haha i'm dumb.
well as for the countdown....12 days until i'm 18, and 23 days until i graduate. hallelujah.
back to school tomorrow, and a 2nd interview at hot topic. i really think i might finally get a job. i'm ecstatic.
i had two really good talks in one day. both put me in a good mood and i gained insight from each. thank you chase & megan...you guys are both just the best.
i didn't sleep last night, soo i'm going to bed.
p.s. i'm ready for summer.
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[15 Mar 2005|01:53am] |
well, i'm loosening up, straightening up, getting my life going in the direction i want it to. new block at school, new outlook on life, new perspective on the relationship. i'm feeling good.
and i love bryce with all my heart.
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[09 Mar 2005|06:05pm] |
ok this is a really long survey...but i'm really bored. so deal with it. or don't read it..either way.
Basics
Your gender: female.
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight.
Single?: nope.
If not, do you want to be?: ...if i wanted to be, i would be.
Birthdate:april 8th, 1987.
Your age: 17.
Age you act: eh, 17-19..somewhere around there.
Age you wish you were: 21.
Your height: 5'2"
Eye color: hazel.
Happy with it?: i don't really care.
Hair color: blonde/black.
Happy with it?: very. i just did it this weekend.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty. but i wish i were a lefty.
Your living arrangement: with the parents, soon to be with bryce.
Your family: tony, dad; melody, mom; cody, brother; nataly, sister.
Have any pets?: two black & white chihuahuas, max & melo.
What's your job?: i am currently unemployed.
Piercings?: lip, monroe on my birthday coming up.
Tattoos?: not yet, but i'm getting marilyn on my back within the year.
Obsessions?: myspace, makeup, fashion, hair...
Addictions?: i'd have to say myspace & coloring my hair.
Do you speak another language?: a little french.
Have a favorite quote?: "growth begins where blaming ends."
Do you have a webpage?: myspace, of course.
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: i try, but it's a really difficult thing to do.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes.
Do you have any secrets?: none that i haven't told anyone...
Do you hate yourself?: no. i just have a hard time accepting some of the things i hate about myself.
Do you like your handwriting?: usually. i change it all the time though.
Do you have any bad habits?: i bite the insides of my cheeks. the dead parts. it doesn't hurt, but i look really stupid. i think it may subconsciously have to do with the fact that i think my cheeks are too big.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: "i love your hair."
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: oh wow, i don't know. it'd be cool if i could think of a name though.
What's your biggest fear?: the dark, horror movies, being alone, dying young, clowns, wasps & bees. i'm a pussy.</b>
Can you sing?: yeah.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: pretend to be someone else? not really...but i felt pretty cool when i was marilyn monroe for halloween. but that's because she's hot as fuck.
Are you a loner?: definitely not.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: bryce, my family, my friends, my relationship with God.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: i would get reeeeally irritated with me. i'm exactly the kind of person that pisses me off all the time. haha.
Are you a daredevil?: um, no.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: my over-abundance of emotions, my need to be difficult for no reason, the way i make everything a bigger deal than it is, and i fear that the ways i try to make things better and pull people closer will end up driving them away.
Are you passive or agressive?: i can be both.
Do you have a journal?: just xanga & livejournal.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: my strength is that i really honestly care about people and try to act the way i would like other people to act (apply the golden rule i guess), and my biggest weakness is that i'm a great big ball of emotion all the time.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: just my ability to let things go. i get so caught up on little insignificant thing.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i'm emotionally unstable.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i regret disrespecting myself and giving parts of myself away to people that didn't even care about me.
Do you think life has been good so far?: definitely.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: my favorite quote. "growth begins where blaming ends." and that investing time in people and loving people for who they are is the most rewarding thing someone can do.
What do you like the most about your body?: my hair i guess. and my collar bones.
And least?: my ears, my cheeks, my feet, my small boobs, and my nose.
Do you think you are good looking?: i know that i'm not ugly, but i honestly don't think i'm attractive.
Are you confident?: i'm learning to be.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i actually don't know. i can't think of one.
Are you perceived wrongly?: i think i am.
Do You...
Smoke?: nope.
Do drugs?: nope.
Read the newspaper?: nope.
Pray?: yeah.
Go to church?: nope.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: yeah.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: i used to...i have over 700 of them. i lost my teddy at my friend's house, but i sleep with my blankie every night. shut up.
Take walks in the rain?: not usually, but i like to sometimes in the summer.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: i don't really hate people.
Drive?: yes, finally. a year and a half later...
Like to drive fast?: yes.
Would You or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: i suppose so.
Hurt yourself?: on accident.
Been out of the country?: just guatemala.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yeah.
Been in love?: i am right now.
Done drugs?: once. i drink all the time, but i don't think you're talking about that.
Gone skinny dipping?: yep.
Had a medical emergency?: just stitches on my chin.
Had surgery?: just stitches on my chin.
Ran away from home?: no.
Played strip poker?: nope.
Gotten beaten up?: just by bryce.
Beaten someone up?: just bryce.
Been picked on?: um....YES.
Been on stage?: m hm.
Slept outdoors?: yeah..i didn't like it much.
Thought about suicide?: nope.
Pulled an all nighter?: a bunch of them.
If yes, what is your record?: 42 hours.
Gone one day without food?: i don't think so.
Talked on the phone all night?: awwwwwwwwwwwwww i miss those days. i used to talk to bryce on the phone all night all the time.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: many times.
Slept all day?: all the time.
Killed someone?: no.
Made out with a stranger?: nope.
Had sex with a stranger?: i've never had sex.
Thought you're going crazy?: once or twice.
Kissed the same sex?: yes.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yes.
Been betrayed?: yes.
Had a dream that came true?: several, as a matter of fact. it used to freak me out, now it's just kind of weird.
Broken the law?: yeah.
Met a famous person?: yes.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: i don't think so.
On purpose?: nope.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yes.
Stolen anything?: yes, but only really little things.
Been on radio/tv?: some news channel did a special on my dad's retirement plan & our family.
Been in a mosh-pit?: not on purpose.
Had a nervous breakdown?: well i've had a panic attack, if that's at all the same.
Bungee jumped?: nope.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeah, when i was little.
Beliefs
Believe in life on other planets?: i have no idea.
Miracles?: yeah.
Astrology?: like horoscopes? no.
Magic?: no.
God?: yes, but i don't understand it.
Satan?: again...i don't understand it, but i believe it.
Santa?: who still believes in santa?
Ghosts?: kind of...i'm not sure.
Luck?: uhh..i don't think luck's something you 'believe' in.
Love at first sight?: no, but i believe if you think you'll end up falling in love with someone as soon as you see them, it's possible that you will.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: no.
Witches?: yeah.
Easter bunny?: no.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: absolutely. it's not impossible to not cheat on someone, even if you do have doubts about a relationship.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no.
Do you wish on stars?: sometimes, for fun.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: i'm going to say no, because i usually disagree with anything having to do with christianity and the word 'traditional'.
Do you think God has a gender?: nope.
Do you believe in organized religion?: no.
Where do you think we go when we die?: heaven or hell..but i don't understand it. i don't think anyone can until it happens.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yep.
Who is your best friend?: bryce, dana, jamie, shannon, kelli.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: bryce & my mom.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: i don't remember.
Your favorite inside joke?: got any gwapes? aaaand candy corn aaaand penis.
Thing you're picked on most about?: my infamous nickname & the stupid shit i did this summer. it was a bad week, fucking get over it.
Who's your longest known friend?: kelli marie morris.
Talking to? i'm talking to josh & terra at the moment on aim.
Newest?: my alternative friends. friends from alternative i mean.
Shyest?: bryce sometimes.
Funniest?: jamie kirby.
Sweetest?: shannon.
Closest?: bryce & dana.
Weirdest?: bryce.
Smartest?: elizabeth.
Ditziest?: i don't know.
Friends you miss being close to the most?: katie, shannon, & kelli. even though i'm still kind of close to shannon & kelli. so katie.
Last person you talked to online?: ...josh & terra.
Who do you talk to most online?: either josh or dana.
Who are you on the phone with most?: bryce.
Who do you trust most?: bryce.
Who listens to your problems?: jamie.
Who do you fight most with?: bryce.
Who's the nicest?: all of my friends are nice.
Who's the most outgoing?: jamie.
Who's the best singer?: i don't really know.
Who's on your shit-list?: a few people.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no.
Who's your second family?: my close friends.
Do you always feel understood?: rarely, actually.
Who's the loudest friend?: jamie.
Do you trust others easily?: i used to, now i don't trust them enough.
Who's house were you last at?: bryce's apartment.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: bryce.
Do your friends know you?: some of them do.
Friend that lives farthest away: alex & mattie.
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: absolutely not. i think it's the best decision in the world.
What do you find romantic?: umm just talking and laughing together.
Turn-on?: haha umm that's for bryce only.
Turn-off?: a lot of things.
First kiss?: my favorite was mine & bryce's, of course. in my room, completely out of nowhere. we were just best friends. that's the best kind.
If someone who you had no interest in had interest in dating you, how would u feel?: i always feel bad...usually i try to stay friends, unless they go totally overboard and get irritating, then i usually ignore them.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out: um...yeahh..
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: not really.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yes, oh god.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: well some have told me they do, so i guess yes.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: their insensitivity and lack of emotion & attachment.
What's the last present someone gave you?: bryce made me dinner and bought me a shirt for valentine's day.
Are you in love?: head over heels.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: ..i don't know.
You wanted to kill?: no names.
That you laughed at?: josh.
That laughed at you?: josh.
That turned you on?: ha bryce.
You went shopping with?: my mom...for a prom dress.
That broke your heart?: shon.
To disappoint you?: no names..
To ask you out?: bryce.
To make you cry?: myself.
To brighten up your day?: kelli & shannon.
That you thought about?: katie, because of that question up there. i miss her.
You saw a movie with?: bryce.
You talked to on the phone?: bryce. geez. these are all bryce.
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: josh & terra.
You saw?: my sister.
You lost?: i don't know.
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no, i'm going to take a nap soon.
Will it be with your significant other?: haha no, he's working.
Or some random person?: well..let's NOPE i'm not taking a nap with some random person...
What are you wearing right now?: jeans & a white tank top.
Body part you're touching right now: i'm resting my left arm on my right leg that's crossed while i'm typing.
What are you worried about right now?: i'm not really.
What book are you reading?: searching for god knows what & happiness is an inside job.
What's on your mousepad?: the gateway symbol.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: bored, sleepy, content, itchy, thirsty.
Are you bored?: um yes.
Are you tired?: those were both two of my five words.
Are you talking to anyone online?: not anymore.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope.
Are you lonely or content?: content. another one of the five.
Are you listening to music?: yes.
THE END.
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[07 Mar 2005|03:13am] |
this weekend was a good one.
i never stop learning that life is good, and i need to figure out how to remember it when i'm pissed off or upset. because seriously...life is good.
i love my bryce, and i am blonde.
the end.
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[24 Feb 2005|01:28am] |
everything is different lately.
everyone seems so sad. even when they're happy.
i can't figure out if i'm the one that's different, or everything else, or both. things i used to have such a handle on are now completely out of control. i'm so lucky, so blessed...and still completely lost.
i feel like i'm losing touch with everyone and everything.
i'm exaggerating things, and belittling things. i don't know what's real and what's purely speculation.
lately i've been able to point out all the problems...pinpoint all my root issues to deal with, but i have no idea how to deal with them. i want to change, i want to fix things, to lighten up...to have fun...but i don't know HOW. i wish i could just stop and let go of everything. it seems so fucking easy..but it's ridiculously hard for me. i guess i'm just scared of what would happen if i did just let go...if i let my guard down, quit getting jealous, aggitated, irritable, upset, moody, sensitive...and just trusted people.
i wish i could practice what i preach.
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[17 Feb 2005|02:39pm] |
i've come to the conclusion i have serious jealousy issues.
and i hate them.
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[16 Feb 2005|12:32am] |
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yesterday is now in my top 5 days of my whole life.
i am so amazingly lucky.
i won't go into details because i don't feel the need to brag or anything...i'll just say it was incredibly sweet.
we ended up renting garden state...and i loved it.
and today at school we watched what dreams may come...and i loved it.
and i don't know about you...but when i watch a really good movie, it puts me in a really good mood. and i watched two. i'm renting what dreams may come tomorrow night to watch it again. they're two of the sweetest love stories ever. and i'm a sucker for love stories.
fyi: 1 month and 22 days until my birthday.
aahhhhhah;wslfivjweut20qQzsbg@O#s#%ftghn%
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[14 Feb 2005|12:04am] |
so i'm at alternative now...and every single fucking thing in my life is falling into place. i ENJOY going to school. that is incredible. i never thought it would happen...plus i get out at 12 every day. i go to school for 3 hours, then do whatever i want when i get home because i have no homework to feel guilty about not doing, and then i go to sleep looking forward to the next morning when i get to go to school. i'm amazed. plus i graduate april 21st. HOT DAMN.</p>
i'm so lucky...i really am. and i hate myself sometimes for being so stubborn and selfish and ungrateful for everything that i have, when so many of my friends have so much more shit to deal with than i do. i love my friends so much...i don't want them to hurt. i want to help them, i just don't know how. so for right now...i'll just remember to be grateful.
this weekend was fun i guess...not as exciting as usual, but it was ok. but luckily i don't have to savor every moment of the weekend like usual, because typically i'd be dreading school so much i'd hate to waste a single MOMENT of the weekend. i don't have that problem now. GOSH i'm so happy.
valentine's day is tomorrow...and as happy as i am, i wish all my single friends were just as happy. to all of you...i love you so much, and i know..i KNOW that you will find the perfect one for you. trust me...if i did, you definitely will. i hope you have a good day...and think as much as you can about how great it will be when you spend your first valentine's day with the one who loves you more than anyone else could. i swear to god the wait will be worth it. but for the meantime...i love you so much...i believe so strongly that one day you'll be treated exactly how you deserve...and i just have one thing to ask...will you be my valentine? </i>
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[09 Feb 2005|05:12pm] |
i am constantly reminded of the fact that everything works out for the best....whether it's a negative or positive experience.
it's so comforting.
patience is a damn good quality to have. and perserverance.
i start at alternative tomorrow.
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[02 Feb 2005|02:34am] |
well.
bryce and i went to illinois on thursday and got back on sunday. i had so much fun...i'm in love with his family and i love all the people there, especially alex and mattie. i miss them so much already.
i've been thinking a whole lot about my future lately...in illinois we went to bryce's first girlfriend's wedding, and it was a huge reality check. it's so weird to me that someone so close to my age is already getting married and has decided she wants to spend the rest of her life with one person, and is confident enough to make that decision at such a young age. it's really weird and seems crazy, but at the same time it makes me realize that i'm growing up, and fast. i don't think it's unrealistic to think i'll be married in 2 or 3 years, working as a stylist somewhere...doing exactly what i want to do. i really feel like everything's right right now...except school.
it sounds so lame...but i'm dying at school. there are only 4 months left, and i feel like i can't make it. i'm completely miserable...i tried to get into alternative, but they wouldn't let me in. so now i'm stuck. i already have 6 absences out of the 10 allowed, my grades are dropping rapidly and i have absolutely ZERO motivation to do anything. i hate it. i hate everything about school. i have about 5 people i talk to throughout the whole day, and i feel like everything i'm doing is completely unnecessary. all i fucking want to do is graduate and go to cosmetology school...but for the first time i'm actually scared it might not happen. it seems so easy, to just buck up and do my work...but it's not. it's the weirdest thing...it's like i can't just make myself DO it. people act like i'm an idiot for not doing anything...but it's like...i feel like there's something else i'm supposed to be doing...and i thought going to alternative was it, but apparently i'm not "at-risk" enough to go there.
all i have left is one credit of english, and a half-credit of history. that's IT. everything else is bullshit. it's busywork. that's all i need...and i'm taking night school for half of the credit in english...but i have to sit through 4 fucking classes of unnecessary work and stuff i'll never need when i get out of school, just so i can get two half-credits. it's ridiculous. i think the school system is so fucked, and it needs to change. but i'm almost done...i just have to figure out something. maybe i need to change my schedule around or something....but i seriously can't fucking take this for 4 more months.
on a happier note....i am so in love with bryce sometimes i can't even handle myself. i wish i could express it all beautifully...but i can't. i just love him.
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[24 Jan 2005|01:54am] |
well this weekend was just about as crazy as last weekend.
i love my friends so much.
i'm leaving for illinois on thursday..i'm really excited. except it's going to be extremely cold up there...
and i'm nervous about a few things. but i'll be ok.
i finally got my christmas present from bryce, it was on backorder forever...it's so pretty. i'm going to go look for a picture, hold on.
aw gosh i love it. it's soo pretty. (in case you didn't hear...we're moving to paris together. ...like it's even possible that you didn't hear..)
i finally cleaned my car out too...and my dad bought me a new face plate to replace the stolen one, so i get my music back. it's so nice...the silence was really beginning to irritate me. my room and the bathroom are clean too. gosh, everything's clean. and i'm happy.
but school tomorrow still sucks.
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[16 Jan 2005|07:00pm] |
last night is the best night i've had in a LONG time.
winter ball was the best dance i've been to yet, and the pajama party was an absolute success.
i kissed a total of 10 people last night. hahahah
the on-goings included, but were not limited to:
pajamas (of course), alcohol (and lots of it), wrestling masks, mullet wigs, camo man-thongs, kissing games, broken glasses, haircuts, boys in lots of makeup, blindfolds, wife-beaters, exposed nut sacs and other male AND female anatomy, bathtub conversations, manatees, and a whole lot of funny drunk people.
oh man. let's do that again.
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[11 Jan 2005|03:13am] |
alright so, i think i'm insane.
i didn't sleep until 3 last night, i was dead tired all day at school, and i planned on taking a nap immediately when i got home.
i didn't.
and now, here i am...at 3:15 in the morning, eating froot loops, energized, knowing that tomorrow is going to be hell, but not wanting to go to sleep.
i hate mondays.
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[05 Jan 2005|06:21pm] |
i hope you guys all had a great break...i did, but it was way too short. i miss so many of you...leave your numbers and i will call you. for real. thank god there are only 2 days until the weekend again.
only 21 days left until bryce and i go back to illinois for 5 days...i'm so excited. i really like it there...plus i'm sure it will be snowing. and tulsa has fucking SUCKED lately with the snow thing. his parents are driving us back...so we only have to pay for one-way plane tickets. which is nice. we're poor. i love him so much. i really do. he's the only one who can put up with all my emotions and still feel like he's lucky to be with me. i'll never understand, but i'll always be grateful.
well...have fun at school everybody. and call me. 918 284 2384
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[31 Dec 2004|10:36am] |
well, it's nearing the end of christmas break, and i'm considering just not going back to school.
ok, that's not true. i'll go. but not because i want to.
new year's eve tonight, i don't really want to go where i'm probably going to end up going, but whatever.
survey time. it's been a while.
1) Starting time: 10:04 AM.
2) Full name: bethany joy lenox.
3) Nicknames: Bethy (Bryce), Beth, Beffis (my mom), Belle/Belli (Kelli).
4) School: union high school.
5) email: cyanidelips@hotmail.com
6) Eyes: hazel.
7) Height: 5'2.
8) Siblings: brother, cody (13) & sister, nataly (10).
9) Ever been kissed: yes.
10) Ever cheated or been cheated on? both, sadly. not to get into a big story, but mine was when i was in a long-distance relationship, and i told him about the next day. i felt awful. yeah, i know, no excuse. i honestly think cheating is the worst thing in the world. i'm always ashamed when asked this question.
11) Ever missed school because it was raining? no.
12) Ever faked sick? yes.
13) Kept a secret from everyone? i really don't think so...all my secrets i end up telling at least one person.
I4) Had an imaginary friend? nope.
15) Wanted to hook up with a friend? haha, definitely. and did.
16) Cried during a Flick? all the time. i cry during movies more than just about anyone i know.
17) Who is your "star crush"? marilyn monroe, angelina jolie, paris hilton, johnny depp, george clooney, ashton kutcher...the list goes on.
18) Ever thought of animated characters as hot? yep. i used to have huge crushes on eric from the little mermaid, then aladdin when i was little.
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19) Drink: milk, beer, vanilla coke.
20) Food: probably cheese. or pizza. no wait...starbucks mud pie coffee ice cream.
21) Restaurant: cheddar's, zio's, macaroni grill, chimi's, olive garden.
22) Shampoo: paul mitchel color protect.
23) Color: yellow, lime green, deep hot pink, orange, light blue. and any combination of those is a plus.
24) Summer/Winter? summer.
25) Online? ....?
26) Lace, silk or satin? lace.
27) Like anyone: duh.
28) Who have you known the longest out of your friends: kelli marie morris.
30) Who's the shyest? bryce around people he doesn't know.
31) Who do you go to for advice? my mom, bryce, dana, blake, lauren.
32) Who do you get along with? my family, for the most part, bryce, and all my friends...
---------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU------------
33) Cried: haha...yeah several times. but i cry more than just about anyone i know.
34) Been mean: i'm sure...to bryce. but i'm just kidding.
36) Been sarcastic: yep.
37) Been yelled at: yeah.
38) Talked to someone you have a crush on? it's not really a crush anymore...
39) Kissed someone? yes.
40) Hugged someone: of course.
42) Wished upon a star: nope.
43) Laughed until you've cried: i think so.
44) Played Truth or Dare: no.
45) Watched a sunrise/sunset: sunset in my car, yeah.
46) Went to the beach at night? oklahoma ain't got no beaches.
49) Are you lonely? nope.
50) Are you happy? very.
51) Are you talking to someone online? yes.
-----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------
52) God/Devil: yeah.
53) Love: i don't really understand how someone could not believe in love...
54) The Closet Monster: lol no.
56) Heaven/hell: yeah.
57) Superstitions? no, but i act superstitious sometimes.
58) Half empty or half full: depends on how you look at it.
59) Who named you? my mom. she had a dream before she was pregnant that she had a daughter named bethany joy. then she did.
60) Favorite quote: love like you've never been hurt, fidelia amor convino omnia: true love conquers all, & the golden rule.
61) When was the last time you showered? wednesday.
62) what is the last thing u said online? "yeahh..."
63) What is right next to you? my prom dress magazines.
64) What is your computer desk made of? painted wood with a glass top (haha shannon i didn't have to change this answer).
65) What was the last thing that you did? took bryce his vest for work. hence my being up so early when i would typically be asleep until at least 2.
66) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? europe somewhere.
67) Where do you want your wedding? i'm not sure...either here or illinois.
68) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? bryce robert hays. honestly though. i really do.
69) How's the weather? strange...it's been in the teens, now it's in the 60's.
70) What did you do last night? went to a part at 15th & sheridan with bryce and kevin.
71) Thing(s) that you find attractive about the opposite sex? honesty, sincerity, openness, interest, sense of humor, and then of course the physical...skinny. and kind of small. and dark hair. ok ok....bryce.
72) How do YOU eat an Oreo? twist it, eat the side with less icing first, then the side with more.
73) All time favorite TV show: boy meets world.
74) What is your favorite car? '66 mustang. teal or lime green.
75) What do you want to be when you grow up? a makeup/hair artist.
76) Favorite music: electro stuff, some hardcore, screamo...anything with really good lyrics or a really good beat.
77) Favorite band? taking back sunday.
78) Favorite food? uhh deja vu...
80) Favorite days of the week? friday & saturday.
81) Animal? my puppies. and puffins.
82) Brand of clothing? too many. wet seal is my favorite store though.
83) If you could change your name, what would it be? i wouldn't.
84) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no, i used to, but i lost my teddy. i'm going to cry. alright, i won't cry. i still have my blankie.
85) The most stupidest thing you have ever done? first off...it's 'stupidest'...and i'd have to say...either being a slut for a week in the summer, or cheating on joe.
86) First Son's name? conor.
87) Husband/ Wife name? bryce robert hays.
88) First daughter's name? well, i really like harmony (my mom's name is melody), but bryce doesn't...so it'll probably end up being the name of our favorite city in europe. or the city with the best name.
90) You like scary or funny movies better? funny. i don't watch scary movies. and don't try to make me, either. you'll regret it, i promise.
91) On the phone or in person? in person of course.
92) Lust or Love: ok...who the fuck would pick 'lust' here?
93) If you could change something about yourself, what would it be? my jealousy issues. or being able to control my emotions better, and not cry so much.
94) Where were you born? tulsa, oklahoma.
95) Do you have pets? max & melo. my chihuahuas.
96) Who sent this to you? i stole it from shannon.
97) What do you think about this person? she is my fluffy poo poo face. <333
98) Your favorite songs? 'you're so last summer' - taking back sunday, 'wonderwall' - oasis, 'brand new colony' - the postal service, 'greater omaha' - desaparecidos, 'stakeout' - freezepop, 'glass danse' - the faint, 'username' 'gianni v' 'day job' & 'chauffer'- the fitness.
99) Anything you want to say to everyone? oh man, i love you guys.
100) Do you want your friends to do this survey? i suppose.
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| have a holly jolly christmas |
[13 Dec 2004|03:51pm] |
everything is so monotonous right now. every day is taking so long.
tonight's my LAST NIGHT OF NIGHT SCHOOL for the semester. so excited. it's only 2 hours instead of 4.
i'm considering just applying at neighborhood market...it's super close, i'd get to see bryce some, and it's 6.90 an hour starting. idk, i'm definitely thinking about it.
so, my car got broken into last week...yeah the fuckers busted out one of my back windows, looked through everything, tried to get my stereo out but couldn't, so my console's all popped forward, and they took my faceplate. thanks guys. it did them no good at all, unless it comforts them to know i can't listen to music in my car until i get it fixed. DUMB. there's a plastic covering on the window right now. it's light blue. classy.
12 DAYS LEFT. and only 7 more of school. I'M GOING TO POOP MY PANTS. alright, unnecessary. sorry.
in english today, we found out that our final is to read this book, and do a little evaluation of every chapter and have an essay test...due monday. i have one week to read les miserables, and do 41 chapter evaluations. i'm fucked. at least it's a good book.
yeahhh i'm done.
wait, QUESTION.
should i cut off my little fashion mullet i have going on? sometimes i like it, sometimes i don't. i need opinions.
GIVE THEM TO ME. <33321
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[05 Dec 2004|08:25pm] |
this month of school will be one of the hardest.
i want christmas.
i've never had someone for christmas...i'm really excited. as drastic as this sounds...i really honestly think i'm going to marry bryce. and i know i can't know that right now, but i've had this overwhelming feeling that i'm going to since right after i met him. it's not like i'm expecting it...it's like i just know. idk, i could be wrong.
but i doubt it.
i have GOT to get a job. i've applied so many places...i guess i just need to keep trying. i need money. especially before i move in with bryce in april...;alwifj;wlik. i hate not having money.
i decided i'm going to see if i can go to votech next semester for half the day and start studying cosmetology before i apply at beauty school next year. i'm really excited...i really need a change of pace at school. when things start feeling really repetitive and boring is when my grades started rapidly dropping. not that i care about grades one iota, but i don't want my parents to have to pay more insurance than necessary. because i'm smart enough to get better grades than i do.
ok, come on christmas. hurry up. i need clothes.
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| hi |
[04 Dec 2004|09:53pm] |
new journal.
hoooo-rah.
<33321
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